Dear Nikki’s Info users and Love Nikki fans,

I am retiring the site. Patreon supporters who have recently donated can request a refund on Patreon, I will approve any requests insofar as my account has a positive balance - https://support.patreon.com/hc/en-us/articles/360021113811-How-to-request-a-refund

I will speak plainly for the reasons for my decision.

The reason for this is that during my absence, I had done some horrible things involving the occult (also known as wizardry or witchcraft). The devil had then gained such a foothold in my life I was firmly in his grasp. All of this started quite small and personal - but quickly escalated, where in the end I was in a situation where I was in a near-death situation involving police, paramedics, and other people, of whose kindness I am grateful for.

There is something to be said for mental illness, but what transpired before, during and after was of a different category.

If you get into a car accident, and someone beats you up, then you tell someone what happened, and they tell you “it looks like that might be a mental health issue, I know you believe what you say is true, but please talk to a psychiatrist” - well that’s how it felt like to me for a long time. No one would really believe me, they didn’t really want to hear me out either.

But inasmuch the devil and hell are real, God is also very much real, and God saved me. The God professed the be the true God of the Roman Catholic Church, the God of Abraham and Moses, born of the Virgin Mary as Jesus Christ, through the Holy Spirit in the Holy Trinity.

I had on the precipice of a terrible situation - called out to God for help. He answered. I then continued to practice the occult. Things got worse again and started affecting others, especially my suffering family, in a way I can’t declare publicly.

Precipice after precipice, mistake after mistake, God took mercy on me despite how foolish and horrible I was - and then I found Him in the Sacraments of the Catholic Church. I was raised Catholic, had drifted away very very far, then returned.

The healing was not immediate, things were sometimes very painful, but with God’s graces and some small seed of faith that remained in me - I got much better! I am in fact doing quite well now. There are still many challenges, but I am hopeful.

If you ever find yourself in such a situation, and you have no one who will believe you or know how to help, please reach out to [email protected] and I’ll answer you.

So what does this have to do with the Nikki’s Info website or the game?

The game features a lot of crosses as dress-up items, which are irreverent to God, the God who so kindly and patiently saved me. The God I love.

There’s a lot of them, disproportionately so. Some are mixed in with gothic demonic themes. Such things, though they might seem small, they carry consequences and meaning. This is not to say that playing the game directly led to what happened to me. I can say with some degree of certainty, it really was the terrible things I did. But in the “back story”, the various games, books, works of fiction, movies, even music - they are there.

I have wrestled with this, but ultimately I can’t profit from or promote something which offends my God, my Saviour - therefore the site is now closed. The source code, the data, the domain are not for sale.

I pray for you all, and I beg your forgiveness for the harm I’ve done to you.

May God bless you all